Autistic, Queer, Invisible

There is a feminist zine, called Speak. It's looking for submissions, with sex as the theme. Submissions are anonymous, though I suppose one could figure out pretty easily whose this is now that I stuck it on my blog. (Yes, I can do that.) This is what I sent them.

Trigger warning: Access barriers, erasure

I am Queer.

I am Genderqueer.

I am read as a woman.

(Masculine is not neutral.)

(My mix. It is not purely feminine.)

I am Autistic.

I can have sex.

Mostly, I don't want to.

Others do. (Yes, Autistic others, too.)

But.

When I can't recognize flirting,

When I don't know how to begin,

When I don't know- can I touch?

-can I kiss?

-is that a proposition?

Your world, it is inaccessible.

Could I if I wanted to?

Doubtful.

You see me as Other,

A forever-child (except not!)

And sex is not for children.

Autistic, Queer, Invisible.