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I am an Autistic person,not a person with autism. I am also not Aspergers. The diagnosis isn't even in the DSM anymore, and yes, I agree with the consolidation of all autistic spectrum stuff under one umbrella. I have other issues with the DSM.

I don't like Autism Speaks. I'm Disabled, not differently abled, and I am an Autistic activist. Self-advocate is true, but incomplete.

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Thursday, October 17, 2013

Look Up!

How about no.

Look down, look down, don't look them in the eye.

It's not about self-esteem, really.

Look down, look down, don't look them in the eye.

If I'm walking, I need to look down to be confident. Know why? Because if I can't see my feet, I will trip over everything. Last time I tried to walk at my normal speed with my feet outside my range of vision (just barely outside, I mean, I was looking straight ahead and not up or down at all,) I tripped within three feet of trying. I have to look down or else I'm going to fall down. So yes, I suppose you could say that my looking down when I walk is about a certain sort of confidence: it's necessary for the confidence that I will stay on my feet.

Look down, look down, don't look them in the eye.

If I look up, I might make accidental eye contact with someone. People are fine. Faces are often fine. Eyes are uncomfortable. If I look down, I still see people, so I know where they are, but I can't make accidental eye contact unless someone falls over. And, you know, if I look up, that someone might be me?

Look down, look down, don't look them in the eye.

The four leaf clovers are all on the ground. Yes, I have a lot of them. I find them in bunches, in ten and twelve and twenty, and that's because I look down.

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